Busy, busy, busy.. Dengan sukantara, menggubal soalan untuk ujian bulan Mac, buku log GSTT, modul GSTT, menanda buku, dan yang paling meletihkan, "mendisiplinkan" budak. Mungkin sebab itulah World of Warcraft sudah menjadi satu "keperluan" berbanding "kehendak". A place (or rather, a 'world') where I could escape all those and be myself.
Hell, aku rasa kalau awek mintak clash sebab aku banyak sangat main game hingga dia rasa terabai pun aku rasa tak kisah. Why? Because realistically, the probability for gaining WoW is 100% - if you pay a certain amount, then you will confirm to get it. But the probability to maintain a relationship is only 50% - even if I pay a lot, travel a lot, spending time a lot, if she finds out that another jerk is more fascinating than me, the relationship ends there - because I don't wanna be so stupid fighting for a stupid girl who falls in love stupidly for a stupid man.. It's really a waste of time as well as degrading I tell ya.. You'll end up being infected with stupidity since there are so much "stupids" in that situation. I am already busy enough that I don't have time to become stupid.
And since I am really busy, blogging this out just as a mean of relaxing my busy mind, the outcome is clear - this entry will be a short one. It's just that something had happened which I just need to let it out from my head and gain opinion from those who may have the knowledge about it. And so, what happened?
It all began on last Sunday. While I was engulfed by the roleplaying in WoW, the phone rang. I just got an offer for an interview for the position of a lecturer in a college (ngajar budak-budak yang nak amek Diploma). And yesterday morning, I went to the interview. The college main course is on management. Yes, I was excited. How could I not? I LOOOOVE management (and it grows bigger after I have used those management knowledge in defeating Abu Jahal and Abu Lahab).
The thing is, for the teaching demonstration on 27th February, they asked me to teach Calculus and Statistics. Tsch..!! Damn it, I hate those subjects. But still, I have to try. If I were accepted, maybe I can kawtim to teach other management subjects.
In the mean time, borang KPLI sudah keluar. Nombor pin boleh dibeli di BSN dengan harga RM 6.00 untuk digunakan ketika login di website MOE (Ministry of Education) untuk isi borang. Surely tu untuk pengambilan bulan Jun. but at least it's worth it sebab boleh ajar budak sekolah rendah - which is easier than sekolah menengah. And surely kerja dengan gomen senang nak buat loan, beli rumah, beli tanah, etc. And of course, banyak orang kata, kalau lelaki, peluang untuk jadi cikgu tu lagi cerah.
However, some things are bothering me, which is the question of whether I should stay in being a contract teacher (and continue to enjoy watching the boobs grow day by day), being a permanent teacher by joining KPLI (sacrificing the boobs and have lesser pay), or just proceed being a lecturer (can see bigger boobs, but teaching hated subjects, and have to work on shift - they have night classes)..
Which one..?
Well, being a lecturer in a small college may give me a lesser pay than my current salary, but still, at least I can be in a new league, an increase in status from before (from primary school to college). And if I have gained enough experience (1 year or more), I can teach at any college (especially those with management and leadership courses). Kena pula kalau dapat masuk PTPL, boleh sambung belajar ke Master dan jadi lecturer untuk ajar budak-budak degree pulak. And of course, teaching budak lepas SPM is easier than teaching budak-budak yang pada umur yang walaupun mereka rela untuk diromen atas dasar suka sama suka, tapi kalau kita romen, kita akan dicas sebagai jenayah merogol.
Masuk KPLI also is not bad. I may have to sacrifice 50% of my income and live with less cash for one and a half year. But still, after the course, I can gain more benefit sebagai seorang pegawai kerajaan yang berdedikasi (at that time, only then I will register myself to vote since the government really help me by giving a permanent job). Semua boleh setel. Tak ada rumah? Boleh duduk quarters cikgu. Tak ada kereta? boleh buat loan kereta yang lebih benefit untuk pegawai kerajaan. Tak seronok duduk quarters? Boleh buat loan beli rumah. Cuti sekolah pun banyak, and I can still active like hell playing WoW till I die.
However, there is one little glitch - I HATE KIDS!! Perhaps, if some of my friends noticed about me, that is why I don't give a fuck to dukung budak-budak atau dukung baby anak-anak member yang dah kahwin atau anak kepada sesiapa sajalah. Yeah, some people (especially girls) may berebut-rebut nak dukung, peluk dan cium budak dengan ayat gedik "Eeeeiii~ Comelnyeee~", but I just.. I just don't give a fuck about the kid or baby even how cute they are. Hell, even if the parents left the baby laying or crawling on the floor, I just don't give a fuck to go near and dukung the budak. I will just sit peacefully on the chair and enjoying the coffee (or tea) served in the living room. Yeah, I'm really a coldhearted selfish man. Cuteness won't work on me. But if it is sexiness or porn-ness, that is another story..
All in all, I just can't stay within the status quo. I need to choose one of those options. And I am still calculating which will give a higher probability of success. Yes, if I stay like now, I can enjoy more money, but to what extent? When the contract ends, and when GSTT were no longer needed, I may regret my own stupidity for leaving two possible bright future aside.
But still, I do not know which is brighter. If you just happened to be here, reading this and didn't leave a comment, I don't even give a fuck. If you wanna leave a comment such as "buatlah sembahyang istikaroh" or "doa banyak-banyak", then please go to hell because you are not worthy to even be here in my blog.. Those things, are my own punya hal - whether I would do them or not, what do you care? You think I dunno about those two things?? Tsch..!!
What I want are facts for me to consider which is better!!
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